Grow Up Or Give Up?

I've been taking daylight for granted.  I have been taking myself for granted.  I have this overpowering notion in my head that I was meant to do big things with my life.  This knowledge is either a blessing or a burden in disguise.  At this exact moment in time, it is unsettling (to say the most in so little.)  I've been waiting impatiently for wisdom and creativity.  This train isn't coming, and to seemingly feed my weakness, I don't get out of my bed early enough to find it.  Tomorrow is bringing too many questions that I'm afraid I can't answer.  20 years, and a crooked smile to show for it.  Gimme fiction.

Yours,

an eternal work in progress

PS.  What's your secret?